. elections .

it been a long ride. I can say that, cause I have been reading every interesting (i say interesting, because there are articles out there that are downright idiotic and useless) articles on the elections on reuters and possibility nyt. I followed, I looked over thecourse of many months, from the nail-biting democratic primary, right down to the really nail-biting election.

and was it historical. It wasn't just that he was the 1st African American president.. to me, it was cause America was on the edge of a huge mess and there was still a lingering hope that someone can bring them back to the older days. There is a possibility of recovery, a faint sight of light... He promised hope and change. In days where bleak conditions make it seem harder than usual. He said we can, and we will. In times when we doubt everything and everyone. He brought the will to fight back, the strength to soldier on. And that to me, is historical.

I doubted his abilities, his experience, more than once. I said Democrats might have it easier if they had Hillary instead of him. Because, fighting against the idea of a frighteningly fierce and capable woman being the president might be easier than fighting against the idea of an inexperienced and black man. Because fighting one front might be easier than fighting against two.

I saw each and every of the significant gaffes and strokes of brilliance. I held my breathe as I waited for the votes to be counted at the primaries and the election on 4th. I was warily hopeful. I feared someone out of touch, someone without experience and general intelligence will be chosen instead. His opponent is admirable. I have met many amazing Americans that support the republicians. But, just like how an ineffective teacher can be a great person but just inefficient in the profession of educating, a nice person who had an admirable past can be a crappy leader in time of crisis too... and a nice and lovely multi-tasking mom can be a great person/mom but not necessarily so in a place so near to the power seat.

Now that everything is settled... there is a sudden sense of loss... what do I look at each time I keyed in my favourite news website. Suddenly, the daily routine of looking at the news seem redundant...

Silly me, there is still the change and hope we are promised of...