书。。。

说过吧。。。 我很爱很爱看书，言情中文小说、英语激昂人心的书籍、浪漫安抚的句子、扣人心弦的事迹，我都爱。

喜欢跟着步伐，开心地笑、沮丧地振振有词、温馨地幻想。。。跟着笑着，跟着哭着，跟着闹着。。像舞者随着旋律跳跃、旋转、弯腰， 心情总能轻易的被拨弄着。

生气地懊恼着，生气地呐喊着，心理默默地想着，活着真美丽~

注：本人热爱并长期搜寻的一本是：檀月(沐风) 的 恶女的探戈。。。呵呵

~song~

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone caresS
omeone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on

aint it true... :)

. i .miss. my hair

Mister Cuddle!! all washed up, smelling fresh, clean and dry~

long hair, dark, richly voluptuous nails colour and my fav ring~(so tempted to get another one!!)

.prime. commentary.

I never like to publicly commend on the happenings in the US. Firstly because I have met some many wonderful American friends and how I think if I were them, I wouldn't like to see a ignorant Singaporean comment on my country and secondly, I have never thought that I knew enough not to embarrassed myself...

But this time, its a little different. I have been following too long to look at an article and not have an own opinion of my own...

So...

I read with interest about a news editor article on the US election: a cry for McCain... It set me thinking... is the saying: the pen is more powerful than the sword really true in this case? can it be that -gasp- we made a mistake after all? can it be that we have been swayed and blinded by the general media... that after months and months of primary caucus and general election campaign that we continue to be taken in by the liberal media?

I did ask myself more than once, if my views on him was colored (no pun intended) by the glorifying efforts of the media.. there were hundreds of media (including all the heavyweights that I looked for when I want to be in touch with US news) that were backing obama and only less than a hundred that were endorsing mcCain... was it that we were to quick to judge, to put him on a pedestal, to pray for hope and change that he promised but may never materialize?

and I would be kidding if I said I never doubted or waver... (if you were asking about manu or hp, my answer would have been much firmer)... there were too much at stake. to not have questioned.

and that is my point. If it wasn't this time of the business cycle. If it wasn't the long primary caucus that trained him to become more aware of the duties, shortcomings and challenges. If it wasn't for the long and tiring drive to the top, if it wasn't such a long time I was hooked on to political news on reuters.. I would have been persuaded by the article.. but it wasn't.

I wasn't so naive to believe that everything promised and spoken will be adhere to. I wasn't going to make myself believe that as much a man he is, he will not switch sides on important issues, tap dance on vital issues. There isn't time for him to be trained for the job. But unfortunately, this wasn't a time for someone like mcCain either...

The change the article felt was missing, to me referred to health care reforms, energy changes. The change was about not sticking to old Washington ways of handling situations, was about not following on 8 years of tax policies, system of laissez faire that was doomed to head to disaster... the change was the departure from what has been done in the past 8 years... while there might be the mistaken extrapolation to mean evolutionary difference from the entire history.. we all know that is not possible.

The criticism of ambiguous change has been brought up many times...(if that came as a shock to the editor who seem to think the media thinks the world of Mr president-elect) As much as the media do favor him, there remains many reservations and considerations from the start... it might be also nice to note that he wasn't even the ideal nominated candidate of his party when the primaries started about 1+ year ago somewhere in that article.

McCain did himself a disfavor when he choose an unknown that clearly wasn't effective in dealing with the media (and that is a positive statement, not a normative one) she had the greatest opportunity to showcase herself when she started with a clean sheet but she obviously missed her shot. So while it is an undeniable fact that media bias was real (and do you not think it has not been exploited by the McCain camp? when especially they did all they could to squeeze every possible sexist accusations that ever existed)... the mcCain camp did make the job so much easier to do.

obama's entire focused campaign was simple: change (yes, you can), hope and anti-Bush. McCain was a bit more messy. they couldn't decide if they wanted to show he was experience and 'that one' wasn't (which flew right out of the window when the vp was elected), or that he had questionable definition of country loyalty and patriotism (who can forget that unforgettable 'palling around with terrorists'), or if they were the change (you betcha!) or the experienced...

it is not to say that by leveraging on what your precedent has failed rather on what you can achieved like the winning camp did(I have to admit, even I found it irritating to hear anti-bush chants for the 100001th time) is the best strategy but if you look from his point of view, whatever that gets you to the seat is the most effective one..

and while it is definitely not nice for the voters... there are so many websites that clarifies the difference in policies stands, so many webpages that are myth-hunters or hearsay-busters.. that it wasn't possible to have no stand of your own.. and hilary clinton has clawed her way through, busting his every stand and positions... so he, to me, came out of it to be a stronger candidate (which he did badly need) after that painful internal party fight.. he risked the danger of drifting rather than unifying the party but eventually he won them over.

McCain, as I did mention, is an admirable person to me. His unfaltering faith and loyalty is so strong, people feel proud to be his countryman (though his words can get a bit cheesy and arranged at times). The pain he endured, the pain he was willing to bear for that sense of pride is breath-taking.. and yet, he disappoints over and over again with his actions (I perceived his pick of vp as the worst).. he said he was the maverick, and yet he bowed to his party over and over again. He 'endorsed' Bush after a very public display of disaffection(which his aide said that was what he said in the public, guess what he say behind)

he chose to take the dirty politician route (not that obama didn't do any of that but it was refreshingly bare) and smearing game that everyone was just sick of...

and while the concession speak may be beautifully graceful (he was graceful when he endorsed bush as well), that side of him was buried in his blinded attempt to win at all cost.. he forgot about that side of him when he allowed himself to be all rattled up in debates and speeches...

so we do know. if we hadn't had such a long route to the White House, maybe we wouldn't had. But we do know.

. elections .

it been a long ride. I can say that, cause I have been reading every interesting (i say interesting, because there are articles out there that are downright idiotic and useless) articles on the elections on reuters and possibility nyt. I followed, I looked over thecourse of many months, from the nail-biting democratic primary, right down to the really nail-biting election.

and was it historical. It wasn't just that he was the 1st African American president.. to me, it was cause America was on the edge of a huge mess and there was still a lingering hope that someone can bring them back to the older days. There is a possibility of recovery, a faint sight of light... He promised hope and change. In days where bleak conditions make it seem harder than usual. He said we can, and we will. In times when we doubt everything and everyone. He brought the will to fight back, the strength to soldier on. And that to me, is historical.

I doubted his abilities, his experience, more than once. I said Democrats might have it easier if they had Hillary instead of him. Because, fighting against the idea of a frighteningly fierce and capable woman being the president might be easier than fighting against the idea of an inexperienced and black man. Because fighting one front might be easier than fighting against two.

I saw each and every of the significant gaffes and strokes of brilliance. I held my breathe as I waited for the votes to be counted at the primaries and the election on 4th. I was warily hopeful. I feared someone out of touch, someone without experience and general intelligence will be chosen instead. His opponent is admirable. I have met many amazing Americans that support the republicians. But, just like how an ineffective teacher can be a great person but just inefficient in the profession of educating, a nice person who had an admirable past can be a crappy leader in time of crisis too... and a nice and lovely multi-tasking mom can be a great person/mom but not necessarily so in a place so near to the power seat.

Now that everything is settled... there is a sudden sense of loss... what do I look at each time I keyed in my favourite news website. Suddenly, the daily routine of looking at the news seem redundant...

Silly me, there is still the change and hope we are promised of...

.hurl.spew.

i just spent like 30 minutes complaining to my mum abt %^&*(#@ pple in school..

there are those sticky girl/boyfriends that clog up the very narrow corridor in the crumpling building...

those that stroll down the park, enjoying the scenery and (I suspect, knowingly) cause a traffic jam behind them..

these are those that dont know people actually need to concentrate and listen to lecture cause that's what students are in school for, and continue to talk, eat, laugh as loudly as possibly, even as you stare and stare till your eyes are popping out

those that never ever remember their phone ringtone/alarm/sms alert/god-knows-what are not nice enough that they have to share with the whole lecture/tutorial group

these are those who are persistent stubborns who insist on typing their sms/appointments with the freaking annoying key pad sounds on

there are those that expects you to update them on the meeting progress even if they are the nth person who come in and you have been updating (non-stop) since forever

there are those who expect you to help them with things she/he and even -datah!-you don't know, just cause it's ALWAYS a bigger deal that she/he don't know

there are people that just havent learn the art or too conceited and think the sun shines out of their butt to even fake an attempt to listen or follow others' advise - You have half a mind to say: I told you so. But that would mean you actually care when you don't give a d**m. it's not worth the effort. They are not worth the effort...
there are those that ask for help whenever any little thing pops up

there are those that expects you to listen to crap and actually agree

there are those whose priorities you never understand-studies, activities or just being a know it-all-pain-in-the-arse? you can never figure that one out

and there are those who spends her time whining instead of doing work cause she is soooo sick that the going is rough and irritated with #$%^&*( people that she needs to start blaming and stop being a weak idiot.

enuff said

I dont think I ever complained about annoying people in UNC (go tarheels!!) maybe its the environment, the change in mentality, the change in pressure point... but it's ironic how they believe in their own individual freedom of speech/actions... but take care to respect others' rights at the same time.. while we can be so selfish with the idealogy of rights and freedom (in general) yet be so generous when it comes to abusing others' rights...

.moon.light.