바보라서

the reason why i am always disinterested in learning a new language is that i know i know nuts over new language...i cant just learn a new language and be satisfied that i know how to converse and talk to pple in the country...i need to be able to feel at ease, to feel comfortable and really completely used to a language. to be able to converse is one thing, to be able to express yourself, your feelings is another... so while my chinese is deteriorating at an alarming speed...i am still savoring over the times i can express my jumbled-up thoughts in chinese and find comfort through them...

so while i understand and know and can identify that babo or pabo means fool or idiot..i need to know and understand why Baboraseo is I'am a fool...cause it makes sense to me when i say I am a fool or 我是傻瓜/傻蛋/傻子/蠢蛋（you get the drift) to put the noun and person infront of the description... but it doesnt make a whole lot of sense to do the yoda thing and say fool, i am... i mean as a language i need to know the structure, the usual way of speaking and thats hard for me... that is unease for me

so while i appreciate and can admire how people are always enthusiastic about a new language... for me i cant fathom the need to be trades of none...maybemaybe there is a tiny hope that it will be easy to master, easy to get the hang of but really, unless necessary, i would like to stick to my native languages..not because of anything but cause these exotic languages are beautiful and lovely..and they deserve much better than me, than my half hearted attempt or half baked skills...